LUNAR SEE? Sunday, Mar 4 2007 

I went to watch the sky last night. It was beautiful and clear and the moon was a dull red. I knew that, with a clear sky and a lunar eclipse, the stars would gather and say hello. It had been many years since I’d seen such a sight and I looked up, concentrated on a single spot in the sky and soon more and more stars appeared, going off to infinity.
Which isn’t, perhaps, incorrect. At the extreme range of my sight was the occasional dull light. Were these galaxies, billions of light years away? If so, then it wasn’t just infinity I stared at, but history. I was seeing something as it was billions of years in the past.
And as I stared I thought about my greatest dream. I thought about man getting his act together and getting out there. And I thought, by the time I die, I want human eyes to stare at a star and see it as big as our sun.

© Anthony North, March 2007

THE BOOK OF LIFE Monday, Feb 19 2007 

I want to speak about destiny – you know, that strange, almost supernatural thing some people think guides us through life. Is it a reality, or is it simply delusions from a fantasy-prone mind?

I have an example of destiny in action. I remember when I was a kid – I can’t have been more than ten – and I went into a shop. I liked going into this shop, not because the shop was particularly nice, but there were some kindly elderly women behind the counter who always had a kind word for me.

This particular day they asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up. Without thinking I said: ‘A soldier, a writer and a dad.’ Now, I’d never given any thought to any of these things before, but it seemed so natural to say. Of course, they gave their kindly laugh, ruffled my hair and waved goodbye after my purchase.

My life was pretty much marked out for me at that time. I came from a family of newsagents so it seemed that I would be going into the family business. Infact, I did so, but soon got fed up and went off to London.

Coming back I didn’t know what to do with my life but I ended up going into the RAF. Of course, I met the girl who would be with me for life and over the years we had seven children together. And guess what, I eventually decided to be writer.

 Destiny. Does it exist? Did I know, instinctively, all those years ago that I WOULD be a soldier, a writer, and most definitely a Dad? Or is destiny an inner thing, where unconsciously you realize what you want out of life, and sculpt that life to make it so?

© Anthony North, Feb 2007

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MEMORIES OF A COLD WAR Friday, Feb 9 2007 

Seeing pictures of the National Cold War Exhibition on the news the other day brought a flood of memories to my mind. During the late 1970s and early 80s I was in the RAF, stationed at a number of air defence bases in the UK.

This was the front line of the Cold War. If it had gone ‘hot’ the UK’s air defences were a priority target for the Soviet Union. The British Isles were known as the ‘unsinkable aircraft carrier’ to the Americans, and were the staging post for reinforcing Europe. Knock out the UK air defence, and this reinforcement would become impossible.

We trained constantly for this possible battle, which would have included air strikes and ground attacks by Soviet sleepers and special forces. Often, whilst people slept in the sleepy villages, we would be on exercise, playing cat and mouse throughout the night, with the occasional mock firefight.

These battles could be very realistic, and the whole thing could become surreal. Sometimes I’d be on the airfield when a scramble would come. The ground would shake as the Phantom fighters took off, their hot flame of reheat scorching the ground. The noise, the vibrations, the speed – you could feel the power of those machines.

Sometimes, in one of the headquarters, cut off from the outside world, mock reports of nuclear attack would come, and you’d think, I’ve been to that city, and you’d get carried away with the possibility that one day it might not be there.

Towards the end of an exercise, we were always affected by mock fallout. So we’d don the NBC (nuclear, biological and chemical) suits and do buddy buddy on each other, checking for the slightest opening, that, in the real thing, would kill. We’d sit and work in these things, sweating, becoming claustrophobic, for hours on end whilst we checked our ability to survive the nuclear phase.

And then after hours, sometimes days, of this mock war, we’d actually start to believe it was real. And then we’d go home, back to real life, and the birds would sing much sweeter. We were at peace.

Thankfully we remained so.

© Anthony North, Feb 2007

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THE ROCK DAYS Monday, Jan 8 2007 

Bowie is sixty. Do you read this right? David Bowie – rock god – is sixty! When I saw him on TV last year, I even thought he was daddy dancing. It shouldn’t be allowed – not his dancing; his ageing.
In my early days he was one of my heroes, along with Hendrix and Led Zep. I was just out of school, just discovering the pleasures of the female, and just learning how to play guitar. I never advanced past a dozen chords, but I had feeling. I could do all sorts with those chords, AND the guitar. So guess what. I ended up in a band.
Bowie inspired me then, along with the others I mention. Hey Joe, Communication Breakdown and Gene Jenie were definites when I played. I tried to play as loud as I could, but I only had 100 watts, and the village and school halls couldn’t take it – nor the cranky old teachers or caretakers. But I was a rock god then – in my dreams.
In later life, I’ve been told that my performances were enthusiastic. OK, I wasn’t brilliant, but as I said, I had feeling. I was once pulled off stage by some screaming female fans. I never accepted it was a set-up – a joke. Life’s too cruel.
I dreamt of making it; of showing the world my talent. I was part of the generation that changed attitudes; brought in the new world for a new millennium. I hope you’ll forgive me for that. But I never made it as a rock god. Not like Bowie.
It’s strange when you think about it. He was my hero, but he never knew I existed. I guess ultimate success would be him knowing that I do. But Bowie is sixty. Can you believe that? Still, in the end me and Bowie DID have something in common.
We aged.

© Anthony North, Jan 2007

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